show me your vanity

shit

2004-08-06T08:53:51Z

school starts soon.......shit

shit....

2004-07-03T00:11:48Z

remember how i said summer was going absolutly fucking awesome a whiel back?! WELL IT FUCKING SUX NOW....i got caught skipping summer school to go to warped tour wednesday and my parents were really pissed and took away my keys THAN today my algebra 2 teacher had to tell my mom im failing so we had a huge fight and now their even more mad...which totally blows cause i doubt il lget my car back any time soon and i havent gotten to see gina very much since phil and chris were otu here whuich was fucknig awesome but now i mgiht have too wait weeks to see her again........adn that totally blows, i tried to tell my parents to take my tv/computer/ gutiar even my cd's awway as long as i was allowed to see her....didnt work...i hope im not fucking groudned for too long...it was only one fucknig day

a certain someone needs to get a clue and take these lyrics to heart

2004-06-16T03:45:01Z

if all you wanted was to die then i won't stop you today. cus i know
your game. i know you'll never change. can't save you. you never wanted me to.
can't save you now. we've tried and failed so many times. and i'd cry for you
again but i've drawn the line. you've lied too many goddamn times. and i'd
save your life again but you've crossed the line, you crossed the line.
but you'll never fucking cross me now cus i won't fucking save you. you never
wanted me to and i played the role for too long. no i won't save your hopeless
life. fuck no. no one can fuckin save you.

-Throwdown

summer

2004-05-31T21:39:46Z

summer is here and its going GREAT so far.....i get my license saturday...hopefully....and summer school starts wednesday...which shouldnt be sssooo bad

frmableedingsky @ 2004-05-09T19:43:00

2004-05-10T02:44:42Z

i think ive figured out girls......they love having a reason for people to feel sorry for them..and if you give them that reason they love you for it

frmableedingsky @ 2004-05-05T18:58:00

2004-05-06T01:58:33Z

i fucking rock at two stepping

"nigga you needa sell your self for food stamps we all outa money" - Sean

2004-05-06T01:53:18Z

TODAY.......was fun.....we totally played raquetball in pe today FUCK YES.....with 4 people in one court fun shit right there....got to hit kyle with the ball...left a welt......fun....anything that hurts someone else other than me is sufficiently entertaining. went to sylvan after school were i made it a point to prove all the tutors wrong...even if they were right lol didnt turn otu so well.....vikki wrote down "obnoxious and combative" in my log for the day all i can say is SCORE FUCKERS. than we came home and i called this huge ass black guy personal trainer that talked to me at the gym the other day and i mstartnig a body building program with him so BAM. and than i made REAL kraft mac and cheese...it sucked to make i hate cooking...if u can even call it real cooking....its the only thing i know how to make on a stove...i put to much butter...but oh well. and than i went into my room and updated my livejournal....which im doing now....but will be done in a second when i stop typing

......i love megan

long time

2004-04-29T01:34:15Z

well its been awhile since i last updated but oh well......yah nothing really new has happened thats worth tellnig all you fuckheads that actually care to find entertainment out of my miserable high school experiences that arent even really that bad but i build them up to be since i havent REALLY......lived yet...i havent been to a show in a while...that sux....i want a broken nose or something.....but oh well in due time...OH i started a sXe tough guy band with 3 singers me being one of em...on top of palying guitar in lying below beauty.....hopefully itll take off.

frmableedingsky @ 2004-02-28T13:28:00

2004-02-28T20:31:22Z

so i saw cut throat romance, fistfight, deathstar, and scars of tomorrow last night..it was good....wasnt really in that much of a dancing mood...so i jsut kinda piddled around the floor...watched ja...jumped in occasionally.....oh well...it was still awesome....but i did learn how to dance RIGHT.......using your body momentum to swing your arms...instead of your arms.....its so much easier...and its faster nad harder too...and it puts almost no stress on your arm muscles...its great...

beefcake

2004-02-22T05:09:09Z

me nad brian spent all day today in the gym..ive been working out lately and itsw showing..its quite enjoyable....although after the first time my arms stiffened up like WOAH...it hurt really bad and i coudltn extnd them past qa 45 degree angle but ther all better now...im running now too. and i like tyhe quality time i spend with my dad while im there...we finally have soemthingin common...common ground between us..hopefully..well liek talk now now instead of ther being awkward silence everytiem were together

frmableedingsky @ 2004-02-17T18:25:00

2004-02-18T01:27:13Z

im just kind of thinking, i know its wrong to be feelnig like i am now, since i have really no basis for these assumptions except observation and no solid fact, but still i feel this way and im scared it may lead to bad things

oh my god

2004-02-16T05:38:30Z

the hxc valentines day amssacre show...was truly a mother fucking massacre.....hers the injury list DUH DUH DUH

1.) i have recieved a fractured rib and a concussion

2.) paul recieved a broken nose

3.) jay recieved a boxers fracture and a dilocated knuckle on his right hand

4.) kyles eye is still fucked up from last weekends show

this show was by far the best show ive ever been to it was amazing......i felt liek i was fighting a braveheart style war on the dancefloor...jsut an all out slaughter...busted lips everywere, blood flying from people as they danced,blood all over the floor.....beau spin kicking all the way along the side as usual......knocking peoples asses out WOOT, nad i got a groovy remembering never shirt

frmableedingsky @ 2004-02-13T22:07:00

2004-02-14T05:09:47Z

yah...i was thinking and i think im gonna stop being such a cold hearted self centerred bastard.....yah....i think thatd be good...i mean sure its working out for me but i feel almost fake doing it

yes yes cant wait

2004-02-11T01:01:35Z

im really really excited for valentines day...the show ive been waiting to see for MONTHS..has arrived.......on broken wings, remembering never, calico system, from a second story window, and shattered realm...all great bands....im gonna get destroyed because nothin is gonna beat this shows mosh...my god..although its sad since ivce lost my nerve...tis been so long that ive danced at a show since my shoulder injury...from dancing......that even at the bled i coudlnt go out IVE LOST MY FUCKING NERVE...its so sad ill have to jsut go for it at the show saturday

the bled....was amazing

2004-02-08T19:40:50Z

i went to the bled last night..it was amazing the dancefloor.....biggest ive ever seen

haircut

2004-02-05T04:12:22Z

i got a hiarcut today...tis so groovy...its short on teh sides and the bangs are long and sweep over...im getting reddish streaks down my bangs OH YEAH....gonna be sexy

frmableedingsky @ 2004-02-01T17:52:00

2004-02-02T00:58:22Z

went to a show last night at the modified...we saw spaero and last ten minutes....well...kind of..we left during spaero because shit happened and stephen ended up getting beat on by 3 guys.....and i lost my pinky splint dancing...so if my tendons decide to tighten...im fucked but oh well....i got my one handed cartwheel out of a low mosh down PAT NIGGA..so im happy....yah tan i hung out with rachel richelle and brandon the rest of the night.....brandon wanted ot get drunk so we stole bottles fro m2 differnt frys...it was fun.....i went hoem at like 3:30 parents didnt even notice

frmableedingsky @ 2004-01-27T18:41:00

2004-01-28T01:44:00Z

eewwww im watching happy tree freinds....its sadistic and twisted and HORRID..but i like it if you wanan check it out goto

www.happytreefriends.com

correction

2004-01-25T22:32:09Z

i meant to say i know antiseptix...and KNOW OF warfair....dont know the guys in it....jsut clearing that up so people dont think im lieing to sound cool heh....no good

my pinky moves now!

2004-01-25T22:01:09Z

yah isnt that cool? my pinky moves.....kind of..not back ot full..pinkiness yet.....lkast night was fun i went some punk show with jerayln and jsutine...it was teh antiseptix, the abiotix, conniption fits, and warfair....ok yes yes punk sux....and i was kind of dragged there...but im godd ferinds with antiseptix and warfair..adn warfair is crust so i was two tepping to it...whicxh was groovy..the punx were scared of me and jay..we had our knuckles on our belts..ive never seen so many punx in one place before though seriously..it was crazy......racheal was there which was an extremely present surprise as always. afterwards we went ot a house party...again..tons of punx...no fun BLEH...than we went to dennys.....wwweee oh i got a cool as i lay dying poster off the wall at the mason jar though..i lost all my money throwing dice between sets but oh well....shitt happens

my perfect date is a car crash

2004-01-20T23:16:53Z

feelings best descriced as:

"When the bleeding stops for you, I won't be here to help you through If we drown tonight we're better off, to hold this breath would kill us all Crushing fate we'll never learn, hearts will break nevermore all my broken dreams, remembering all that you said." -Wings Of Scarlet

hah yah so.....dillemma at hand......yes i dotn really feel like TELLING ALL of you.....but on the other hand y else would i have a live journal...the idea is stupid really...i wonder why i even have a LJ at times....than i realize i just tried ot be another one of those brainwashed wannabe artistic teenagers witht their deep song lyric away messages and cliche compalints aobut their love life's which never really even begun yet...your only a fukn kid damnit, and self implied higher intellect by using big words and witty phrases for the subject of thier LJ's, great...you have a gargantuan vernacular good for fucking you...im so disgusted with myself and others for being so unoriginal..but i cant help it, i like the security it brings, free thought is too much work

ok im done ranting now,

nigs

oooooowwww

2004-01-18T05:07:16Z

ok holy shit....i got the pins out of my finger last thursday....which is cool EXCEPT FOR THE PROCESS of getting them out.........that sucked so much..forst off the doctor is like "ok were jsut going to block your finger (in other words numb it) so he leaves...and then he comes back with something in his hand, then he busts it out A NEEDLE WELL OVER 6 FUCKING INCHES LONG after he jams it into my hand between my ring and pinky figner and twists it around and im screaming because not only does teh needle fucking hurt since hes twisting it aroudn and shit the shit hes injecting burns liek hell as if someone is peeling the skin off my hand. than i get a break the nurse has to scrub my hand for 10 minutes or some shit than they put me in a tourniquet...which stops circulation from wherever they put it on and down..so half my arm is cold and numb i guess its so i dont bleed all over and teh doctor can see what hes doing....than comes the incision..i didnt really feel it i felt a little sting but thats it.....what was worse is i could feel him pushing tendons aside adn his instruments scraping my bone and then he wen to pull otu teh first pin and his tweezer thingys kept sipping off.....aahh god it was like nails on a chalkboard....then he had trouble finding the second pin..but he got em and now my pinky is wrapped up due ot the sticthes im suppsoed to try to move it but everytime i try it shakes like crazy and hurts...and it wont go anywhere...i hope its because its weak from not being used in liek 2 months and its freshly healed...i shoudl ahve full movement back in 2 weeks they said

woooo it finally went down BITCH

2004-01-15T01:05:16Z

correction on above post.....my mood and music are different....sry

woooo it finally went down BITCH

2004-01-15T01:04:02Z

hah...so charles and jay finally fought......great shit man......funniest shit ive seen in like EVER YO.......yah so first they are like lets take it out to the desert...but that is too risky...if u leave school campus ur fucked....of ocurse its no big deal for jay and charles but i wasnt gonna risk getting caught and i HAD TO SEE THIS FIGHT since charles has been bailing for days now. so they are like fuck it and jsut do it outside at lunch right in the quad.....charles is fukn scared...but i admire his courage for still fighting....at least hell maintain his dignity and my respect for him.so jay throws soem punches....hits charles....charles tries to hit jay...not happening...lol than jay throws him into this big cement pole and throws him to the ground than gets on his back and is WAILING in this kids head and shouting BITCH lol fukn great....and of coruse good ol officer johnson comes.....lol walking semi fast towards them...and charles is looking up at him between blows and the look on his face is jsut screaming HURY THE FUCK UP AND SAVE ME YOU SON OF A BITCH....lol so the officer grabs jay and throws him face first into the pole as if hes arresting him...and charles gets up and are both led off to the office.....fukn great

hhhmmmm

2004-01-13T22:17:59Z

welll.....this is my first entry in this whole live journal business thing...............its cool....i guess.............jay was supposed to fight charles again yesterday but as usual charles bailed.......and now the whole entire POSSE NIGGA is pissed.....so charles is basically dead...poor poor charles....the guy had potential too......ill have trouble watching as charles gets his skull cracked, brass knuckles hurt like hell